The Gifts We Give

Since I last posted it feels like our country has been in a constant state of stress. Tensions and anxiety are running high. My stomach has been in knots and it feels as though any time I don't have real-life actual obligations I cannot seem to be productive. I have spent hours, and I mean HOURS, playing completely mindless games while periodically checking the rabbit hole known as the internet. It's a vicious cycle that my heart, soul and blood pressure can't handle. My sleep has been terrible, my skin is breaking out in ways that it never has before and even meditation has turned against me because the calm and peace that it suggests feels so far away that it makes me cry every time. The only times that I've felt a release from the darkness has been at work. And for that I am eternally grateful. Over the last two days I met some wonderful people, saw a few of my regular guests, talked, laughed and put all of my energy into making sure that for 15 minutes or 2 hours I was there for someone else. This is all to say that I hope you are all taking care of yourselves, but if you are having a hard time trying to figure out how to do that, try taking care of someone or something else for a little bit. I promise it will make you feel better.